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Something Ive been meaning to do [28 Mar 2005|03:04pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]


Friends only for now you guys. Comment to be added, I dont bite. Oh, and please, if you want me to add you, add me first mmkay?


Even if you read my journal through someone else's friend page, comment to be added, most likely Ill recognize your username.


Thanks a billion guys <33

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[28 Mar 2005|02:22pm]
[ mood | apathetic ]

Was ANYONE from Nanuet at SCHOOL today?

Thought not. Me either though, so I cant blame all of you. Why go back when we HAD off? Such stupid shit.

ANYWAY. I have work tonight, and an essay to write.

I dont want to write the stupid thing, and I dont want to go to work either. I want it to be the weekend again.

My mom bought rolls from Rockland Bakery. They're hot, right out of the oven. I want to eat all of them because they're so good.

Okay so bye.

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Working on Easter [27 Mar 2005|01:48am]
[ mood | exanimate ]

Between what happened with customers tonight to having to work on Easter, Im not too happy with Sears at the moment. Ill especially be upset if I dont get Saturday off, its very important to my mom that I go to the baby shower with her, and so Ill call out if I have to.

Other than that, everything is okay.

As mentioned in the last entry, I did get a haircut...of sorts. Everyone will see it on Monday if Im at school, and if not, then Tuesday. Pictures of it will be up soon after everyone sees it. I want to wear it up to work, but then again, I dont, because I want people to get the full effect. BLAHBLAHBLAHARGH.

I <333 Reilly, because she can cheer me up like WOAH when Im sad and upset with things.

I finally got my checks and my new Debit card.

Im debating on not coming to school on Monday, because I just dont want to. I mean, I can say I was on vacation or something, no one would ever know or anything. AHHGH, I think Im just going to go. Of course, this is providing that I get my English Essay and French homework done x.x;; damned.

I want to write my MLA English paper like, right now... but I dont have the already typed shit that I have at the school library here. Its so hard to put together an essay thats so incredibly easy.

I got a new pair of sneakers to replace an old pair. I need to buy a shoe rack for my closet, and some of those huge container things to put under my bed for out of season clothes and the like. Im planning on kind-of re-doing my room, and my bathroom. It should be fun. Hopefully x.x;;

Okay, night time for me. I have to be at work at noon.

Talk to you all laters <33
OH, and an OFFICIAL Happy Birthday to Danielle!

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So, for all of you that arent Reilly [25 Mar 2005|11:02pm]
I got a haircut

You'll see it at school on Monday.

Pictures will follow Monday night.

Thats all.
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Ode to Reilly [25 Mar 2005|10:50pm]

Teh luuurve of meh life
(yus, before Ricky even)
You = teh uber shmecks0rz
I want to have your babiehz - all of them
From the HUUUUURHs to the ...HUUUURHS we rock

Hardcore, we r t3h l33tz0rz. (and yes, thats in my yearbook caption)

SO dont worry about Joshypoo, or .... the other pooheaded boys out there
because all boys are poops. Yes, yes they are.

We are SO going to Paris to be annoying fangirls and to scream and sing and meet cute French boys. Yes, even if we are married. It'll be funfunfunfun. AND WE CAN SHOPZ0RZ

and un-homo boys that we think are pretty. but even still, Im sure they'd have issues because we're prettier then THEM. HURHM

OHOH and Gaia, and n00bs and <3333


Yes, yes you will.

and then, we'll have babiehz and name them after eachother and andand do all sorts of fun things and I could be like your older sister but not but yeah,

and seriously mans...

Dont worry, y ou're still a freshman, 3 more years of high school for new students, new friends, new expectations, everything. Im sure you'll make it. I know if it doesnt turn out the way that you want it to right now, you'll be upset, but Ill be here for you to cry to. (NOT THAT ITS NOT GOING TO TURN OUT THE WAY YOU PLAN, I MEAN COME ON, ILL GO TO HIS HOUSE WITH THE BLOWUP LOLLYPOP THAT SQUEAKS AND WE'LL BOP HIM AND RUNRUNRUN BECAUSE we = KILLER ATHLETES HURRRH) and to tell you that no matter how sad it may be, theres someone there for you, and you'll find him. Sometimes its better to just wait for the right one and wait for someone who gives a damn about you as much as you give a damn about them. You'll find it, God doesnt hate you xD.


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Spring Break, Driving, and Shoe woes [23 Mar 2005|07:21pm]
Im contemplating doing all of my homework tonight, so that way, I dont have to worry about it on Sunday night. Blech.

So school this week was so hard to get through, partially because Im still tired from Albany and the ride and all. Ive been having the hardest time getting up and staying up.

To top it off, I really didnt have to be in 8th or 9th period today, which I came back for thinking that I would have to be there. x.x;; Someone shoot me plzkthx.

So my mom is letting me drive all over the place over spring Break to get my ready for my road test, starting tomorrow. We're seriously going to drive ALL over, highways and all. <33

Im tired.
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OMG SERIOUSLY [22 Mar 2005|11:52pm]

I got a link from a friend to their myspace, and forget it. Theres a ridiculous number of people I know who have it.

I signed up for it awhile ago, but I never like...did anything with it.

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So... [21 Mar 2005|04:57pm]
Albany was pretty good.

Ah, who am I kidding, I couldnt hear the other parts of the chorus, and, as always, Sopranos were really pitchy.

And of course, the pitchy ones are the ones that belt and make it impossible to hear the altos, tenors and basses. Someone.shoot.them.plzkthx. I mean, I thought there was a reason to have AUDITIONS. So that way, you could kick out the pitchy ones, the ones who SHOULDNT be in a chamber choir -.-

On the way back on the bus, we amused ourselves Cindy style, and we reminised about all the songs we did in past years in chorus. I got stuck on the name of a song I was thinking of, but then I came home and found it just now.

Good times on the bus though, between calling Joey, to being all like "AWWWWW" to like, eating brownies that were definately not totally brownies so Lauren wouldnt eat them. We had such a good time. I wish we could have stayed for longer though because there was so much to do and look at that I didnt get to do last time. ;-;


and I have to go to work tonight.

<333 Christina
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[18 Mar 2005|10:54pm]
When your boyfriend promises to call you when he gets home and he doesnt call you, you'll be mad

When he promises that, and more then an hour goes by, with no call, no answer on his phone, and no answer at his house?


THen its time to panic

I need to know he's alive and safe

but I cant know that yet

OMG though, Im so worried that I think Im going to have a mental breakdown

If anyone who has a car reads this, please, seriously, go drive to his house and please just tell me his car is there and he's safe, please.
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[17 Mar 2005|11:41pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

So, Im looking on this hair website for Ricky so he can get a haircut.

A windo pops up. I exit out of it.

Next thing I know, Ive got about 20 spyware programs installing themselves on my laptop

Now, Im running a virus and Ive found about 10 Trojans



The internet, and stupid popups

To top it off, it looks like I cant wake up early tomorrow because Ill be up all night fixing this.

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Breathe No More [17 Mar 2005|08:44pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

What frustrates me, is that I see a girl, going through the same thing I went through, and I see a boy, doing the same things my boyfriend did. My ex-boyfriend.

What frustrates me is that I cant help her, she has to help herself, and what frustrates me is that neither of them deserve it.

Shopping this Saturday with Tushie, maybe Mia and Lauren M.


I feel so helpless sometimes.

I remember someone I dont want to remember right now.

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A few simple equations [17 Mar 2005|02:42pm]
Today = St. Patricks Day

Green = color Im wearing

Today also = nice outside

That = Chrissy going for a much needed workout run

Much needed run = tiring

tiring = losing weight

losing extra weight = happy Chrissy

I > then everyone else for using this lj format
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To elaborate on before [15 Mar 2005|10:27pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]

Its actually not everyone, just a few people in particular.

Well two, and one is myself.

So that means, Im frustrated with another person besides me

Yes, just one, and its enough to make me want to go somewhere abandoned and scream as loud as I can in frustration. Oh how I wish.

I think its time to start planning my escape.

I think Reillys idea for me to come down there for a weekend was a good one.

I think Im going to do it if I can find out how to without a liscense. Im sure there are trains though.

I think I need to break out.

I think Im tired of hating how I look, and Im tired of being frustrated, and run down, and tired, and Im tired of this, this freaking cycle that never ends, and Im tired of not being taken care of the way that I should be, and Im tired of it all and I just want to go far away and come back and hope that everything is fixed.

But it will just be worse

Freaking helpless. Im so fucking hopeless that its not funny sometimes.

I really just want to scream at something, at someone, somewhere where no one can hear, just scream and scream, LOUD about everything I HATE about my life and maybe that will make me feel better, instead of listening to angry angsty music that just makes me more annoyed with myself and my life.

Then again, its about time for this to happen, it hasnt in awhile, and Ive been expecting it.

And Im frustrated because my best friend, I feel like I dont know her anymore because we never see eaachother, its like the lyrics in a song that i know, about how meetings mean nothing, becausethey're so short and nothing is ever accomplished.

I want my life back, my normal life

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[15 Mar 2005|09:15pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Ever made a HUGE mistake and wish you could take it back?


I hate my life right about now, and NO I dont want to talk about it.

Im pretty much frustrated with everything and everyone.

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[13 Mar 2005|08:07pm]
Im so proud of everyone involved in the show. We pulled off a great 2 nights.

I gave my senior speech, and when I got off of the chair, I realized how much I left unsaid that I wanted to say. Ill post it in here, or in the Nanuet Theater community sometime. I still have to get everyone and tell them how I feel about them... since I didnt do the circle thing to save time, but everyone else did it x.x;;

It was really great talking to Lauren and catching up with her, I miss everyone I used to hang out with so much, and I really am glad that we all talk again.

Props to Bruce for another success with lighting

I guess thats all I really wanted to say, everything else I was going to say before just seems not important
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So what do you wish for to catch you when you're falling [12 Mar 2005|09:58am]
Ive got some time to update before work.

I was thinking about calling out again, so I could rest and hang out with Ricky, but I decided against it because that would mean Id only work 2 days this week and that wouldnt be good at all.

Since call for cast is at 4:45 for all the speeches and stuff, and I wont get there until 6, Im hoping that Rachel can stall for me, my speech is really important to me this year, and I wanted to hear Rickys <33

The show last night came off amazingly well. Im so proud of Danielle and Emily, and everyone else that stepped up. My original speech that I wrote yesterday before I knew about Gina said stuff about how Nanuet Theater was about doing something for the better of the show instead of yourself, and I just find it so ironic. I dont know if I should take it out or not. Im probably just going to nix the paper and go with nothing.

I feel so many things right now. All day yesterday all I wanted to do was cry and cry, for everyone else because they couldnt. But, I couldnt because I had to support everyone. Im not bitching about it at all, Im glad that I had that distraction. Im still not okay, and I wont be until this is over, but I cant let on to anyone that Im not okay, because then there's more drama and more people get upset.

I really dont want to go to work. ;-;

Eh, Ill ask Smitha if I can get out early if she's there.

Talk to everyone laters <33
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[10 Mar 2005|10:23pm]
[ mood | drained ]

I SO just realized that I was 18 today.

As a result, I now have 4 holes in each ear. Yup, I got my THIRD and FOURTH ear piercings today. See, crew was really off for the whole day, so we went out with Shana and Rob and I got it done. I feel so great about it, but Im not liking how it hurts a bit more then it should still x.x;; By the time she got to the 4th and final hole she was putting in, I was flinching and ACK... I dont remember the other ones hurting.

We're so hooking Bruce up. I love that boy. Seriously though, he's been so great. Im glad I got to know him more through this experience.

I had no clue what to say for my senior speech, but today gave me everything I needed

Thanks everyone for the best day in a long time. <333

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Rehersal [09 Mar 2005|11:50pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

So, at first I thought Id die at rehersal for a few reasons. One, I had no clue how to use spotlight. Two, I heard the musical was going hideously. Three, eh, I just felt like dying.

By the end of rehersal, I not only MASTERED spotlight, but I got a cue that even BRUCE messed up. I got to bond more with Ricky and Zack, and all thee crew/techie people.

I seriously cant wait until opening night.

I have a to-do list for tomorrow which includes moving stuff, fixing stuff, and writing stuff along with headbanging while Im doing it. Having the whole day off from school rocks.

Having to take off of work doesnt, but I can deal, and Im sure Sears can too. Hopefully x.x;;

Okies, Im going to bed now, I have to be up in 6 hours, and Im tired, even though I can nap all day tomorrow if I want.

Night, and congrats to the cast and crew for a great invited dress.

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[07 Mar 2005|09:59pm]
Did I mention how much I hate the plays?

The plays that keep my boyfriend from having his phone on, which in turn, doesnt let me know to call my mom because he wont be picking me up, which in turn results in me having to wait in an empty store for about 20 minutes while she woke up, got dressed and came down.

Not to mention I dont know what Ricky is doing. Oh no, its not him that I dont trust, but after being in what I was in, and hearing about what I wasnt there for, I dont trust ANYONE on that cast to keep their hands off of him. Okay, maybe a few people. I keep thinking something is going on and that he's going to leave me and the talk about what goes on backstage doesnt help me at all.

To you, he might be the most horrible boy on the face of the earth, but to me, he's everything and Im constantly afraid.

And being afraid makes me hate myself

and then I start to hate him.
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[06 Mar 2005|10:26pm]
I hope Reilly is okay :(

We still dont have the mag up, because of some personal issues.

Im not sure when Im going to have time for the GFG this week because of the play, but Im going to bust my ass to get all my homework done at school and all my play stuff done at the play, so when I get home, Ill have some time to deal with Gaia stuff.

Life is going to be hectic as all hell this week. Hence, hell week. Without the play, it would be so much better ;-;

But either way it would be hell because Ricky would still be doing the play, and that means Id have to go and see it and support him and stuff, even though I cant see him for most of it xD. Still, I guess Id rather be doing something for it. I really wish I could back out of it now and just work, but Im stuck I think, and I get PIG hours for spotlight which = happy camper for me xD... I should get about 15 Ricky said, so either way, even if I get like 9 or 10 or so, that takes out a good chunk of the hours I have to get. Goodgood.

So yes, for anyone on the verge of mental breakdown, you can come and talk to me. Im not letting myself get as crazy as I normally would, so I guess for this show it will be my turn to be the rock and anchor that everyone bitches to and at. Im willing to do it <33

I get a senior speach again xD

Okay, night everyone.
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